at
the heart of the greatest tales told there's always conflict. the crux
around which the story breathes, acquires colour and grows. here too
there was conflict from the word go. a visceral clash that was palpable
almost; and as often such things are, hard to describe in
words. why did they react with such vehement force toward each other
from that first meeting in sheesh mahal? why did he snap her dori and
the pearls scatter? that night she was truly at the
receiving end of his wrath. an anger that was always laced with whispers
from the past. he overstepped the mark. she was shocked and something
else, again hard to describe. her rage flew at him and in her till then pristine heart came the first shards of an undeniable emotion that finally became love.
today
she came to return the compliment and ended up being as unfair to him
as he was to her that night. that night he hadn't listened to a word she
had to say, suspecting her of the most terrible things. now she refused to let him speak, accusing him of pretty awful things. he had told her he knew girls like
her well, and even spoken insultingly of her sister's marriage
breaking. all she could do was plead. now she said to him that he was
heinous enough to put her life at stake knowingly. and he said not one
word.
about 10 minutes of conflict visible and invisible right in the middle of the episode. around it other themes developing plot. but in the middle the battle of dil and dimaag, and two contenders curiously equal. today khushi was consciously acting from her dimaag. in fact, right from that chat with lavanya and her hangers on, khushi displayed this other side of herself strikingly.
she was a bit scared she had admitted, but then she'd calmed herself
and perhaps switched on her "dimaag ki batti" to survive the battle
royal. she knew her dil would be hopeless at this job, being as loving, as giving as she is,
she'd find it hard to tell him all she'd made up her mind to. she'd told
payal, if the rakshas wants a fight, i'm prepared for it.
he was in a funny state of mind, emotionally churned. di had just gone through a fainting spell and she was his "sab kuch," he'd been reminded of his parents and felt the familiar anger angst turmoil
his memory always brought him, and back of his mind he was still worried about
her. her thoughts practically stalked him (they could teach the forum stalkers a thing or two about lurking without permission, barging into all sorts of places and refusing to leave). how telling that thought
filled little pause in front of khushi's desk, looking at dm, when he
ought to be rushing to di. and of course, the beautiful "usska ek naam
hai." she has a name.
in the midst of this the telephone
rings. khushi wants to meet him. a wondering but not unhappy or angry
look. "khushi?" so comfortable with that name now. let her come. and so
she arrives, armed with her letter and her darti hai par karti hai courage, ready to take on mr arnav singh raizada. as
she walks in, there he is at the top of the stairs. on his face a shade
of concern, a bit of some question, nothing else. her eyes widen, many feelings flow in her, but she walks ahead. the contenders approach each other, exactly as in a battle (nice direction, stirring music, and prolonging this only whets the appetite, gets us ready to watch the smashing
duel). as they come face to face, both pause. khushi looks a little
nervous, hand instinctively reaching to settle dupatta (nice touch), he
waits. her eyes fall on the scar, so do his.
and in a second we are in dil land. he remembers her pushing him in the guest house, so furious, and him holding her back, then by mistake breaking her bangle, cutting her. strains of rabba vey stir the visual. an almost tender look on his face, she looks at his face, seems a little nonplussed, and she lowers her arm. wound out of sight.
"tum... theek ho?" are you... alright?
soft, empathetic query. he needs to know. "mujhe interest nahin hai" i have no interest is easy to say. khushi has never heard this tone of voice from him. and somehow it acts as perfect fuel for her fire. strange are our reactions when those who mean more to us than we know are concerned. instead of being mollified she's enraged. what did you ask? am i ok? after so much has happened only arnav singh raizada can say such a thing... she takes off. he opens his mouth to explain, but...
"nahin!aaj hum bolenge...toh jahan tak aapka sawal ka jawab hai... toh haan, mr arnav singh raizada, hum abhi theek hain...aur agle kuch hi minton mein hum aur bhi theek hone waale hain... kyonki humne yeh faisla kar liya... ki hum yeh naukri chhodenge."
no!
today i will speak...
as for the answer to your question... then yes, mr arnav singh raizada, i am fine...
and in the next few minutes i shall be even better... because i have taken this decision.. that i am going to leave this job!
he looks stupefied almost at this declaration. she holds out her letter and he stands immobile just looking at it, almost a flash
of pain in his eyes. then she continues, before you say i have lost...
she counts out all the difficult tasks he'd set her and made her suffer
through. he looks uncomfortable, perhaps even a bit remorseful about
that... and speaking of the contract which she tried to live up to with sincerity and hard work, she ends:
"khushi kumari gupta ka naam aapke keemat se zyada maine rakhta hai."
khushi kumari gupta's name has more meaning than any price set by you.
she was trapped in the guest house for quite some time. gave her time to think, and all her thoughts led to the same conclusion, "ki bhad mein gaye aap aur bhad mein gaye aap ki naukri," to hell with you and to hell with your job. as her anger pours out, she throws caution to the wind and speaks of rights and responsibilities, and how he had abdicated the latter, therefore had lost the claim on the former. she then
accuses him of sending her to a dangerous place knowing it might
threaten her life. the tirade loops back elegantly to the opening
gambit... after all this you say "tum theek ho?" yes i'm
fine, not because of you, despite you. and don't think i have lost this
bet, you have.
people who love me, would never send me to such a place and put me in harm's way. people who love me... neat dialogue, emotionally resonant, hits the viewer.
all the while he stands there silent, just looking at her, slight changes in expression in reaction to her words.
at around the point she decides he knew she might die there, yet sent
her, i thought i saw anger enter his eyes. if so, would be perfectly
understandable.
he steps forward, she backward as though on cue. "bol diya?" had your say? he says, terse,
clipped, efficient, maybe reining in his temper (why? because he
understands her panic and really doesn't want to be nasty to her?) and sticks out his hand for the letter. the contenders are face to face, she spits out "bol diya!"
and slaps the letter into his palm. boy, that felt like a real fight
between lovers. just that bit. otherwise it was kkg asserting herself before the naturally authoritative and powerful asr.
yet surprisingly when after bidding nani ji farewell khushi turns there's this deep and uncertain look in her eyes. rabba vey fades in. they gaze into each other's eyes. a connection you feel you can touch.
dimaag
had had its say. now it was dil's turn. all the while she walks away,
there's an anguished look on her face, while he stands stock still
watching her leave, away and a bit further away she goes, he can't look
away. right at the door, she stops, and turns to look at him. pain on
her countenance? he looks as though his whole world is going away.
neither says a thing. he crushes the letter in his fist.
"don't ya love her madly, don't ya need her badly
don't ya love her ways, tell me what ya say,"
"don't ya love her madly, don't ya love her face
don't ya love her madly as she's walkin' out the door"
~~~ robbie krieger, the doors ~~~
fantastic acting by barun and sanaya in this tense, erupting scene. a whole dialogue seemed to take place in parallel just through their looks at each other.
the smart and a bit naughty screen play has mami ji wondering if shyam has a woman in his life at the beginning of the episode only to be admonished by mama ji. and at the end, we see, shyam indeed all set to let another woman into his life. he will calm khushi down, he knows how, yuck. before that a little teasing of bua ji. mami was always the hintiya giver in ipk. her "cantrobhersial" weather forecast is about to come true i bet.
anjali moves into the asr kkg equation with a little hijacking of khushi on the way out.
she is proud of the way khushi confronted him, however chhotey is not
that bura a guy. khushi leaves, but that lost look, that confusion never
quite leaves her face. in his room he reads her resignation letter. both remember things. he sees her in her red saree, hair flying. she remembers him holding her in the rain. they both recall the conflict in the guest house. you can walk out the door, but can you leave each other?
conflict takes us to resolution, without it, we can't really strive. as they say, all's fair in love and war. a powerful episode. brilliantly devised and of course, performed.
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fan fiction
this anger needs to be close at hand and raging and making me forget everything. sunday with resignation, ha... as i redo edits since dear photobucket has blocked all my visuals.
